I am just your standby ~

Everything is driving me crazy! urghhh!

what do you want me to do? I'm lost. I'm confused. I felt so useless. I can't help you with anything, I'm breaking down. I'm going crazy. I wanna cry like nobody business, scream like nobody business, cut like nobody business!

yea... It's finally weekend again ~ okay :) intend to blog yesterday but was too lazy so I decided to blog now :)

It's about yesterday before the weekends comesss :) FRIDAY!

Dunno why but have been feeling very stress and moody... exams are coming and it's just right this friday ._. first period was mass reading as usual, then English... recess time I brought $2 fried carrot cake but only finished half of it and threw it away ~ I dun feel like eating again.... Social Studies! I forgot to do the mindmap -.- how awesome can it be? teacher was telling us to write down our names and to meet her after school outside general office -.- she likes to say that I am a councilor and I shouldn't this,shouldn't that and I should know the school rule well... my head went down after that and I started to cry... can you teachers seriously stop it? T.T ugh! have been crying lately but pheww no ones sees it.... cause everybody thinks I am fine as I put a smile on my face :D didn't have any mood to do anything but still have to -.- 

after that was Maths ~ went to walk around the school for awhile with Christel and headed back to class.... teacher was teaching something new againnnnn Zzz.... Chrsitel and I was like saying our exam for Maths going die, we missed out lots of chapter as we dunno... Just fail all the subject bah ~.~ STAR lesson and Ms Nah take us out from the class to do our English test ( Me,Christel and Jambola) god damn me! I totally forgot the format for it and I am like writing rubbish out of it! Christel and Jambola finish their test and went off le, left with me! test ends at 12.45 and I am still not done then I ask Ms Nah whether I can rewrite then she says that she had to go off at 1pm...

Saw Ms Jelena Chua then I ask her if she can 'take care of me" then Ms Nah tell her blahblahblah then I go sit with her and I need to stop my test by 1pm! It is seriously driving my crazyy, I feel that my mind is going to explode and I wanna Jump off the building,cut myself, punch the wall everything! after that I keep punching the table etc... until my knuckle are very red and a little bit of my skin like came off? something like that ~ after that was asking Ms Chua about my geography paper thingy then she's like teaching me and I keep hitting the table... my hand hurts but I didn't care ~ cause I am like @#$%^&*?! she keep telling me to stop LOL but I didn't cause I really cannot take it anymore! actually I am not clear what am I talking yesterday ~ I cannot remember what I said,I guess ~ cause I also dunno what am I talking about Zzz... headed home after that and then we,3 sisters carry like 7 or 8 bags of freaking heavy clothes and books to school and we are like laughing and stuff it's super heavy I swear! >.< reached school and the three of us is like going crazy ~ after that Er Jie treat us bubble tea.

Ah Jie went off to find her friend while me and er jie went to Ju Jie's house! we were chatting and laughing away after that went down to meet my mommy and eat ~ didn't really eat after that I went to buy bubble teaa! and then  Ju Jie was already there 0.0 hehe mommy tabao food for daddy le then head back home while me and er jie stay and pei Ju Jie etc. :) Ju Jie is working night shift :( after we leave at 7+pm together with her and then we went home... I played computer for awhile and sleeppp allll the way like a piggy! 

20 April 2012 ^^

Fridayyyy! Woohoo ~


Woke up late and wad almost late for school... plan to wake up at 5am but ended up,my plan is screwed -.- so sianzzz I run all the way to school, I can hardly catch my breath >< Reached school and went to do my duty... after that went back class for English lesson... as usual it's like nobody is listening to Ms Nah and all of us is all over the place, and the noise level is totally twxklsgopsemdajiriocnmvc Laughoutloud >.< recesssss! yummy?


two freaking period of Social Studies ._. I wanna sleep le luh! Continuing our notes and I was busy reading my story book :) Once I start reading a book, I can't stop :P then was like teacher call a few up then tell them their marks...I was expecting to pass or what luh but you know what? I ended up with 3 Marks over bloody 14 -.- I was going to cry when I see my results but didn't.... It's like seriously @#$%^&*?!  I am gonna fail lots of subject le.... haiss, I guess teachers dislike me too ~ omg! what if I retain?! was in a total no mood after that,,, Maths lesson... Mr Issac was here -.- purposely went to the toilet and then came back late xP and when I'm back I just do my own things -.- STAR lesson....... I sleepppp.


Yea! School ended, I wanna go GYM! but didn't T___T went to find my platoon matessss and we all sat down and chit chat we thought that there will be working hours but dun have cause it is going to be exam time... so most of them went back left Me,Felicia,Lilian and Levancia we went up the SJAB room blahblah and then helped Ms Syahirah with the project sphere thingy :) and then Ma'am Wenping was looking for us HAHAHA we were no where to be found as we were watching the teachers playing sports! cute sia they! After that we went back to SJAB room then we were chitty chatting and left around 5 ++++ went to slack


Played BASKETBALL! it have been so long.... Kinda Miss Eugene :'( haizz after that went to S-11 to eat with Kok Sheng and Felicia after that headed HOmeeee..... watch tv and accidentally fall asleep and woke up at 12+am -.- and go bathe and so here I amm now ~ ~ ~ Okiedokes! Good nights?


XOXO,
delenelalala

19 April 2012 dunno why but felt sad it reminds me of you again and 10 April 2011

I'm so bored so time to blog! tick tok tick tok :)


Today is Thursday and I hate Thursday can? Like since sec1 or dunno since sec2, Thursday is the worst day ever for me :( Thursday,why can't you be good to me,like at least for once? but maybe sometimes not


hehe... I am so weird,right? okay, first period was Englishhh ~ lalala was chatting all along with Christel :) follow by Physics.... ._. we got back our test and I got freaking 4 marks over 25, pathetic right? -.- yeah! finally recess time ^^ but didn't really eat hahas


Oh my goshhh! Recess ended that means It's CHINESE LESSON! twxcklgsriogxcnvms there's a test T.T it's like kill me please, my chinese sucks like hell now ~ I think I am going to fail lots of subject >.< very scared I retain sia o.o I have 1 hour to do the test and when I am only left with 30mins I am still struck at paragraph 2 so dead... haisss :(


Maths lesson ~~~ was chit chatting :) haiss...feels sad again zzZ ugh!!! hais... I not good at comforting people neither am I good in giving people advise when I myself can't even do the things I told them to do ~ argh! I sucks I just wanna help etc.. but I am not good in it >.< sorry,I'm not a good friend :( 


PE.... boring sia play some stupid game -.- secretly went to the gym for awhile xP teehee after PE is principles of account ._. i dun care... just sleep :)


was late for maths red-flag thanks to Ms Ng -.- release us so late,bloody chicken :@ after that went to find feliciaaaaaa and duckieeee :) after that see the sec4s POP ^^ hehe after that stay back and slack :D hehe we were disturbing Ms Jelena Chua about... Laughoutloud! It's so adorable and sweet to have those couple teachers in the same school etc :) <3 I am so evy of it :( 
hahas.... I wish.................................................


Went to tampines mall cause NKS want buy calculator,he lost his todayyy >< aiyooo today so damn cold sia.... Listen to music on the way back homeee! :( ya...if only my phone wasn't spoiled I can still read those messages again when I miss you...


kay before I end here's for my friendsss :D


Sorry my friends.... I am not a really very good friend...I always make you guys feels irritated etc.. I am not good with my words and always dunno how to cheer people up >.< I felt so useless... I really wanted to help all those but I seems to make it worst or even don't make you guys feel better :( but I promise if anyone of you needed me or needs a listening ear, I will always be there for you guys :D you want vent your anger at me also can, I dun mind as along as you guys feels better after that,yea? :)
Love you guys foreverrrr all my friends :D ♥ ♥ ♥ 

alalala,

delenelalala :)

6 April 2012

hello... okay, I am bored. So i decided to blog :)

haiss... having a very bad headache now,it is killing me... hehe, fell off the electric bicycle yesterday with my

cousin >.< yesterday my knee also hit the wall very hard while I was sitting behing the electric

bicycle... bad luck -.- feeling very cold + hot now but mostly cold ~

kay... woke up very late today as I have been sleeping very late and I am lack of sleep.SO, let me tell you

about YESTERDAY!!! Cycled to Changi City Point with my sis,her boyfriend and my cousin....was feeling very lonely then... :( and also no mood..... 10 April is coming,so fast right? the day I break up with Tan Wei Xiang.... things started to run in my mind, and I started to feel sad and stuff :( quite stupid of me to still miss

him,right? dunno why but just can't seems to forget about him.

okiedokes! get back to my yesterday... cycled back to tampines to meet my aunt for dinner!^^ sianzzz... we chiong back sia! so tiring, I guess my Asthma is back again, was cycling up the slope using a lot of energy

and stuff and I was like cannot breathe, having a super hard time breathing, trying to take a deep breathe.... so after that, my sis see me having a hard time cycling she tell me go sit behing Meng Teack kor kor and she will cycle....

Reached Tampines Mall.

Went to eat Pasta Mania! Ordered Chicken Ham Cheesy Crumble :) + Combo A... gosh... seriously getting fat I am FAT! everybody says that I am very skinny but the fact is that I am really fat ._. ate finished and cycle back to my cousin's house... that was when we reached her house downstairs and I pei her to lock her bic and I tried to cycle the electric bicycle with her sitting behind me... was not balancing well at first, after that stable and then lose control of the bic as the electic bic starts to move quite fast, and then the next second... we were noth on the floor >< People was like looking at us then asking us whether we need help, then we was like no... hehe, me and my cousin was still laughing XD the bicycle's basket is totally out of shape, thanks to me :D my leg now hurts like twx@#$%^&*?! :'( hehe,went up, chat awhile and back HOME! My sis was bathing so in the mean time, I fall asleep woke up bath and then back to SLEEP!

Kaykay,

byebye

delene :)